Could it or really be a bunch of Crap with Crappola Spread?

By pure moments of spontonaeityand inspiration. Spiritual healing, guidance books are propelling themselves into my tiny brown hands. I've gone through extreme mood swings in the past few days from the point of break-down to pure happiness. Call it what you will, false hope....quick fix...

But I believe I can and know how to get on course in life.

I feel it already....I feel alive!

I know now that Its about doing things that make me feel happy, things influenced by my own decisions and certainly no one elses. No one else is to blame in my life. I am beginning to learn to forgive and forget and I haven't been happier. Like Radiohead mentions: "Jigsaw falling into place".

Because I have had to find distractions, I'm listening to music again (new music), Picking up magazines and allowing myself to be endorsed in the culture all again. I have a bold plan and revamped way of thinking.

more to come chickens

x With love
Dee

What now?

My boyfriend and I have broken up.

Being heartbroken is probably the worst pain in the world. You need to seek distractions from your harrowing state....or you will wake up with puffy eyes Like I have this morning.

Things have changed


and I hate it....


I wish I could accept them but its going to take too much time.
Everything gets in the way. I can't sleep or eat or even sit and think.

Its cliche

but its the truth.

Sleep time.

Night beckons dear child.

Kept awake by a ticking clock

and a ticking mind.

No comfort save for a self embrace,

time to sleep dear child.

May angels help your soul and

guide your whimsy dream and catch the tears that roll

roll

roll down your face.

For tomorrow is another day.

tomorrow is another day...

I've forgotten how to be myself