Early start

I woke up before the sun.

I went to bed feeling like I had given up on life, when I had only given up on yesterday.

How am I supposed to make something of today when I am so afraid?

My thoughts are so conflicting, but it is nice to know there is one side of me that is a little more helpful and encouraging. I have another essay due tomorrow. Which I definitely started last week, however made no progress. Funnily enough I awoke believing it would be super early. But it is almost 7am and incredibly dark out. But to be roused by bad dreams and worries is not the way to start a morning. Especially, now when I'll spend the whole day alone. Trying to convince myself that this task is so simple. I pray that I can overcome my concerns and apply myself. It is a simple task. I just want to complete it so I can come home in time to type the whole thing up and still get to bed around 10pm.

Day 4 of my Detox starts today. I was sloppy yesterday..not so much with the food, but with all the herbal supplements I am supposed to be taking. I at most took my multi-vitamin, digestive bitters morning and evening and my pills in the morning and one milk-thistle at lunch. But since I am up so early, I guess its my good conscience telling me to not waste time and finish the task at hand.